My Spiritual Journey

I was shown what can only be described as Heaven on a number of occasions and those experiences changed how I see the world in which we live. A memory of where we came from. An answer to the questions of everything. These are some of my personal experiences. I’m compelled to share them, even though what I experiences is beyond words. 

As you read this, remember that I love you unconditionally. And while I may write things that upset you, or that you might take issue with, I absolutely mean no harm to you or anyone else. I honor you wherever you are in your spiritual journey, and my only hope is that perhaps we can walk together for a while and experience God-Love with each other.

I no longer believe in god …

There was a time when I did believe in god, but after my strongest of experiences, I can honestly say that where there was once belief, there is now knowledge. The difference between belief and knowledge is important to understand when reading this story. To me, belief is when we think we understand something in our heads, where knowledge is when we truly understand something in our hearts. What I have come to realize through these God-Love experiences is that where I once believed I understood god, I now realize that I only thought I understood God, but I didn’t really know God. And now that I have been blessed with a few moments of Truth, I have a knowledge that is undeniable, and I have a desire to share that knowledge with you.

If you have had an experience that you cannot put into words, I would love to hear from you. As I have come to Know God, I have also come to know that I am not special in any way. Everything I have experienced has been experiences by others, and will be experienced by everyone at some point.  Just click the link and send me a message.

The Gift of Heaven in the Heartland

The Gift of Heaven in the Heartland

I had always imaged God speaking to me in words, or maybe I had hoped for that. Some direct evidence of a connection with Him (at the time I thought of God as a male entity, although I don’t any longer). Maybe He would say something, or I would see some visual expression or a sign that would point directly to Him.

We Are All Just Lost in Thought

We Are All Just Lost in Thought

Nameless, thoughtless and absent of identity, the gift is offered, freely given, unconditional, and universally understood like the loving whisper of friendship among two who have not seen each other in such a long time that their faces need to come slowly into focus.

An Instant Before This Moment (A Little About How We Got Here)

An Instant Before This Moment (A Little About How We Got Here)

Like screaming children demanding the Creative be the way they deem It be, a tantrum of spiritual immaturity with the misguided impression that if there are enough like minds, and if every disparate mind is winnowed out, like weeds that can be pulled until the lawn of creativity can look like one vast sea of uniformity, then the Creative will stand up and notice and give recognition where it is long overdue.

One of Many Lives in My Closet

One of Many Lives in My Closet

In one life time on a distant planet, I lived with my people at the top of a mountain. Everything was stone. Our homes, markets, temples, all made of sun-drenched stone. The space was an oasis in an otherwise dusty desert. 

One Tiny Sliver of Light From A Past Life

One Tiny Sliver of Light From A Past Life

When the planet failed, it happened quickly and violently, or at least it seemed that way to me. Just a few years and then a chain of events occurred and it was over. I remember souls streaming off the planet, like slivers of light pouring out in all directions.

These Are Dark Times

These Are Dark Times

Darkness All Around Us I came to Earth in what human history would call the Dark Ages. My memory of the lifetimes before my current incarnation are sketchy at best, which isn’t surprising. It’s hard enough to remember the recent past much less...

Once Upon A Time There Was Magic

Once Upon A Time There Was Magic

God was a woman, life-giving, and unpredictable, whimsical, loving and magical. Filled to overflowing with emotion and maternal guidance. We respected Her, and to do otherwise was to invite a host of misfortune.

The Laws of Attraction

The Laws of Attraction

When we see the world through the eyes of Christ, we see a different world and a different set of circumstances. The outcome is different. People are different. Their attitudes are different.

Just What We Need, Another Preacher of Hate

Just What We Need, Another Preacher of Hate

A short while after I settled with my congregation, I met a man who would become my spiritual counselor and God’s own agent of mercy and understanding. An old soul who had lived on earth many lifetimes named Whispering Winds.

Life During Death, or is it Death During Life?

Life During Death, or is it Death During Life?

Life During Death, or is it Death During Life? For a time, I had wondered how people could look at life in a body and see anything but pain and misery.  The pact we make to be here is to buy into the ego and accept that death is real, and that...

Early 1958 A.D. Back From The Void

Early 1958 A.D. Back From The Void

Had I been able to talk when I was born, my first words would have been “I need a smoke and a shot of gin,” but I wasn’t able to talk, and the feeling was a crawling, itchy, skin-piercing sharpness …

Mommy’s Sweet Little Angel

Mommy’s Sweet Little Angel

She was maybe 12 or 13, so she didn’t understand what she was doing to me, and she couldn’t control the forces driving her, etched there by someone when she was not much older than I was then.

Pushed from the Catholic Nest: A Tragic First Communion

Pushed from the Catholic Nest: A Tragic First Communion

I panicked thinking I didn’t know I had to bring something, and while I didn’t know what a sin was, I knew for certain I didn’t have one and didn’t know where to get one on such short notice. I searched my little, disturbed brain for anything that I might use for a sin, but drew a blank.

Witchcraft and Sorcery Most Foul

Witchcraft and Sorcery Most Foul

As my mother ramped up the séances and conjuring and generally caused panic to seep into me like jaundice into an old drunk’s sclera, I started to be given advice from my guides on meditations and protective invocations to bring discipline and structure to my mind, and to keep me from being completely swallowed by fear to the point of committing suicide for the thousandth time.

In the Pit of Despair

In the Pit of Despair

Like he was a dark mist that could vaporize and slip unnoticed by everyone around him from one person to the next. And with countless psychologists, self-help gurus and spiritual advisors that I would meet over the years, each would tell me that the world is only what I make of it.

Not Working Up to His Ability

Not Working Up to His Ability

I remember the moment I decided I was no longer going to be a punching bag. I gathered myself together and became determined to find a way to protect myself.

Laugh Clown

Laugh Clown

But like all thieves, Satan came back to the scene of the crime looking for his next take, and Aphrodite opened the door for him when she became cold and distant and crushed my emotional teenage heart with a few sentences and an abrupt dismissal that left me with the remainder of high school alone.

Hey Spirit Boy, Over Here

Hey Spirit Boy, Over Here

I had a ledger in my mind and kept score of all the people I thought had harmed me. I was innocent, and those other people were all treacherous.

The Devil on the Silver Screen

The Devil on the Silver Screen

The more I thought about it, the more it became clear to me that what we call life is an illusion created by us by bending God’s beautiful mind into something strange and insane.

Give Me Ten Hail Mary’s and Never Sin Again

Give Me Ten Hail Mary’s and Never Sin Again

For a while I thought maybe I could learn to be perfect. I’m sure it’s crossed your mind as well, that perhaps, if I worked really extra special hard, and cleansed myself, like a flagellant monk, I could avoid god’s wrath and slip out of the devil’s grasp.

Running with the Undesirable

Running with the Undesirable

When the good people won’t have you, and you’re told you’re going to hell and taking your entire family along with you, hell is where you find yourself.

I’ve Shown You Mine, Now Show Me Yours

I’ve Shown You Mine, Now Show Me Yours

He said something like, “If there are little green men on another planet, is their god green, or is it the same god we have?” I think what he meant was, regardless of whether we worship the same way or not, is god the same for everyone?

Why Can’t We Just Be Friends

Why Can’t We Just Be Friends

Heaven is the opposite of ego’s conditional love, which is why you can’t take your ego with you. But no worries, I can tell you firsthand you won’t miss it at all once you’re in Heaven.

Near Death, No Death, Only Death

Near Death, No Death, Only Death

Near Death, No Death, Only Death A while back I was visiting with a spiritual group I belong to and a woman told the story of her near-death experience. We talked about near death, no death and only death. She told about being a small child and...

God Is Abstract

God Is Abstract

God Is Abstract. If you are made in God’s image, and you are, you must also be abstract. Being abstract is frightening at first.

The Diamond of Truth

The Diamond of Truth

What I’ve learned is that when I reach for God’s Gift, I can’t get it because only the ego grasps for things. When I search for it, it’s always out of reach

It’s True, We’re Not Monkeys

It’s True, We’re Not Monkeys

To find Heaven, stop thinking. Don’t just clear your mind, but empty it. Let go of all the history you’ve been taught and look again at all those around you for the first time.

What Does the Real World Look Like?

What Does the Real World Look Like?

Just listen gently, without any judgment, and let the images and words pass. Like teenage girls texting about their lives, none of these thoughts matter in the long run, and while you might have to out-wait the insanity, eventually, those thoughts will slow down, and stop.

Now I Go and Say Something Hurtful

Now I Go and Say Something Hurtful

The light is you in Forgiveness. Not forgiveness for something anyone did, or said, or didn’t do, but forgiveness that allows you to move on from the past and forget the future and be in the moment, not in time, but out of time.

A Better Question Might Be: “Who Is God?”

A Better Question Might Be: “Who Is God?”

We’ve all killed many millions of our brothers and sisters in our lifetimes. There is no difference between thinking it and doing it. To think it is to do it. Thoughts are things. When we think something, it allows that thought to project.

A Very Special Kind of Hell

A Very Special Kind of Hell

Perhaps you believe that the only thing standing between a complete unraveling of society and some sustainability are words in a book about how the god of hate will judge you after your death, and if he determines that you were a bad person, you will go straight to hell.

Let’s Try This Again

Let’s Try This Again

Let’s Try This Again I’m going to try to describe the indescribable (my calling is that of a masochist, so I’m par for the course). I’ve tried this before, many times, but I’ve never been able to get it right. There is a reason that God is beyond words or thoughts....

Can You See the Real Me?

Can You See the Real Me?

Vast and warm, like a gentle kiss on your forehead, a gift, freely given without expectation, without condition, everlasting and unchangeable. A kiss from God that envelopes your entire being, like hugging you from within rather than from without.

What Is Forgiveness?

What Is Forgiveness?

Another reason it’s so hard to understand forgiveness from the perspective of God is because God has already judged everyone (and I mean everyone)

God Is Not in Conflict

God Is Not in Conflict

God is not in conflict and God doesn’t need to judge you. God has already done that. God’s judgment for you was done the moment God thought You into existence.

Molly Dies From Skin Cancer (And Goes To Heaven)

Molly Dies From Skin Cancer (And Goes To Heaven)

We are a reflection of God, or god is a reflection of us. One or the other, but not both. And if Molly and the bad people can’t let go of the idea that god can be angry, sad, disappointed or have any other emotion than complete Love and Joy, heaven can’t be heavenly.

I Hate That I Need You

I Hate That I Need You

I need you because I cannot stay in Heaven without you there. And neither can you, no matter who you think I am. And I really, really want to be in Heaven right now.

A Planet of Light

A Planet of Light

They explained that our physical eyes get in the way of seeing. And that if you can close your eyes and use your pure imagination to help you see, see with your feelings instead, you can see the universe as it truly is.

Let’s Make Miracles Together

Let’s Make Miracles Together

I need you, my saviors, to let go of my past, and find me for the first time again. I need you, my champion, to put aside our history, set down your weapons and see me with the eyes of God.

What Is Unconditional Love?

What Is Unconditional Love?

You have done everything You could to get God to notice how special You are, and in It’s silence, We have been waiting for You to set all that aside and return to Us.